There are so many unanswered questions about being Bipolar. I have never talked face to face with anyone who was Bipolar. I have read articles and talked to professionals, but they probably had no personal experience with the disorder themselves, only second hand knowledge. I would have loved to have had a resource available where I could have shared my own struggles and compare my pain with those who were dealing with similar challenges. My hope is that in my blogging I will reach those who suffer, and hopefully they can feel someone out there has been there, done that and has felt their pain and burdens, and realize they are not alone. Isolation is often our biggest enemy. I know it was mine. Society is spotty, to say the least, in talking openly about mental illness.
I also want to help give those who do not suffer the disorder a birds eye view of understanding this very complicated disorder by sharing, up and personal, my journey which has spanned over seven decades. I want to brainstorm about lots of aspects that need to be discussed, like the cause and prevention involving suicides of children because of bulling. I want to share stories of successes and failures.
If I had to give one sentence that describes my experiences being Bipolar it would be, I have NO FILTER connected to my emotions. I can go from 0 to 100 in seconds and never know if I will remain a minute, hour, days, or weeks. Some times I have felt I was living with a time bomb in my brain. I also look at it as having a virus in my computer (brain) that no one can fix. I believe my wiring and chemistry in my brain is what makes me Bipolar. I am willing to dump my heart and soul out on these pages in the future to make a small step towards bringing Bipolar disorder out in the open as I see it .